It's a new year, and hopefully a new me.

So it stands to say that I've not been very successful in updating this blog. It seems as though where I left off in my writing and sharing is where my life went drastically downhill. After thinking and thinking, I believe it's time for me to truly start writing again.

The less I keep people updated, the more I keep to myself. The more I keep to myself, the worse I become mentally. I have let myself go: body, mind, and soul. Needless to say, I am slowly picking up the pieces from where I broke my own life. I'm starting to open up more again, accept more help, surround myself with positivity, and simply live for myself and the others who mean so much to me. I have had failed relationships which have brought me to all time lows, and new relationships which have brought me to all time highs (family, friends, and significant others). I have people who have stuck by while I selfishly and narcissistically believed that the world was only about me. I thought for the longest time that I was fighting alone. I was angry, pessimistic, depressed, jealous, and had lost my love and flare for life.

Overall, I am on a healing journey to get my life back, and I will do it. There will be obstacles, hills, even mountains, but I'm slowly remembering that I'm not going through them alone, and that what I do not only affects me, but those around me.

It's 2012. I'm newly engaged to the most positive man I've ever known and loved. My family and friends are still sticking by me. My dog even likes me occasionally. Here's to a new year full of friends, health, help, and happiness. I'm ready to change, and I will.